Posts Tagged ‘anger’

Anger, I has it

March 29, 2008

I’ve stayed away longer than I wanted to, mainly because I’ve been so, so angry since the funeral. It’s not going away, and I’ve had additional anger added to my tightly-wound emotional state, so I guess I’ll just have to power through, the Michael Bluth way.

Things that royally pissed me off relating to my grandpa’s death:

— Someone getting upset whenever my grandma was mentioned (you know, his wife of 44 years, mother of his children, who isn’t around because she died not because they divorced)

— Someone bitching because all she could eat from the City Barbecue dinner between visitations was macaroni and cheese because she’s a vegetarian (guess you’d better learn to start thinking ahead, huh?)

— Someone listening to his mp3 player/iPod/whatever during the second visitation (I wanted to punch him)

— Someone carrying on before the funeral like it was her father or husband who had died (seriously, it was appalling)

There are several other things, but you get the gist.

The more recent anger-inducing events are best not talked about, but they made me feel the need to get wasted last night, which I did and which I am now paying for. Did you know you can’t drink like you’re 21 when you’re 30? I did, but that sure didn’t stop me.

We went up to my friend Jason’s house and played some euchre, and I did a lo-ot of drinking. Apple martini at dinner, wine coolers and sour apple pucker during the cards. I had a lot of fun, because I just adore hanging out with with Jason, and Dave and I rarely get to play cards. Today though, I’m really wishing I hadn’t had that last wine cooler.

In other news, I have a new crush: Jim Halpert from “The Office.” Dave is lucky Jim’s not a real person. If he were real, I’d be on the road to Scranton, Pa. right now. Also? I might consider letting John Krasinski be my boyfriend.

Yeah, we just watched the season two finale on Thursday, and I’m anxiously waiting for Dave to get home from a bachelor party so we can start watching season three. I finally get this post from MB, and like some of the people who commented on that post, I have been watching the end of the episode over and over. *sigh* So sweet. I love him.

All quiet now, except for that music

March 19, 2006


Kim & Charles’ wedding day
Originally uploaded by Dani H..

Hmm, it’s been over a month. So many things to tell.

As you can see, my sister got married on March 9; they didn’t tell anyone they were doing this, so I had a brother-in-law for two days and didn’t know it. Do you think she’ll still let me drag her to a bridal shop to try on gowns?

My grandpa had knee surgery on March 6, which should have been a simple thing, but then some bad things were going on with his stomach, so he was in the hospital for a week. Bad times for everyone, especially him, obviously, but he’s home now.

I have two bridesmaids dresses hanging up downstairs, and guess what? Neither fits right. But it was planned that way, kind of, because I’m dieting to make them fit. No, it’s not stupid to do that – I’ve lost 11.5 pounds so shut up! They’ll have to be altered anyway because I’m too short and, well, when you diet the boobs are the first place you lose, so the tops are too big. But I foresee things working out splendidly. And I bought my shoes for both yesterday (1 pair for both, thank you ladies!) and they’re pretty cute. So, hooray!

On the grouchier side, work’s been a serious pain in my ass and there are certain people that I’d really like to punch, but they frown on that, you know. Especially the ones who float along and don’t have a clue what they’re doing and then get praise piled on them for something I helped create. Nice.

But you know what? I’ll get over it. I bust my ass regardless of whether it gets noticed, and I know it, and that’s what matters.

Last night we went to the DAV with Joy and Rodney and caught up. We were going to play pool, but never got around to it, we were so busy babbling. Which reminds me, Dave is in their wedding too, which is in Vegas! Yay Vegas!

The other wedding is my sister-in-law’s wedding, have I mentioned that before? I can’t remember. So we’ll head to Philly in May and Vegas in August. Much traveling for us.

And now, after spending hours uploading (downloading? which way would that go?) songs, I’m listening to Gary Allan on my new iPod nano. Before that it was Dean Martin. I wasn’t sure about this little thing yesterday, but now I’m seeing how great it will be.

Garth in my ear while I’m doing dishes!

Frank in my ear while I’m doing laundry!

Jon in my ear while I’m working!

That’s Brooks, Sinatra and Bon Jovi for the confused among us.

OH! Long Day – Matchbox Twenty – makes me think of BGSU. I’m a weenie, so I’m outta here.